On Words...

I am a writer and right now, I cannot find the words for the feelings I have going through me.  Thinking about it, it's probably because sometimes, there are no words... just feelings... a look in the eye and touch of the hand, the smile on your lovers lips.

To try and put those feelings into words would perhaps diminish them somehow.   Make them less vibrant and one dimensional.

For a long time now, I have been living day to day, not really thinking too much about the future, just knowing it was out there and eventually I would get to it. But I had nothing to look forward to. Simply *just living,* isn't really enough. It's a sad and lonely way to spend your days and nights, only I had no idea just how lonely I had become. Not until I realized how truly happy I could be.

The past few months gave me little glimpses into a future I could be happy in. But I wasn't sure how to get to that future.  My normal M.O. is to rush, hurry, mangle and maul my way to what I would like in my life, but for the first time, I simply waited. Patience has never been my strong suit and yet, patience is what was required and I listened to my instinct. That little voice that is never wrong told me to just wait.

I have always believed in the Once Upon a Time fairy tales - I knew there was a Prince Charming to kiss me awake again. With patience, with care, with love, I was woken up.

The past few days have shown me what that waiting was for and it was worth every minute of that wait.  To try and describe the happiness I feel, the love the fills my heart and the joy I have in picturing a future where I am not alone, it just can't be described. This cannot be captured in mere words. But when your heart sings the same song as the person you love, there are no need for any words.

~C