Homesick for Home... But Where is Home?

 Since I was a little girl, I would often find myself feeling melancholy or sad or just well, "homesick," is the closest way I can describe it. But what confused me was that I usually felt this way, AT HOME.  I never really understood why I felt that way. I couldn't tell if I was missing a person or a place or maybe both.

Fast forward many years and much studying and I think I may have discovered what it was I was feeling...

Have you ever felt out of place? Perhaps you have felt different or never quite fit in anywhere.  You have longed to go home, but aren't sure what that means or where this "home," is. Let me tell you a little story.

As all good stories start...



... In the beginning, before space and time, Spirit flowed out and became millions of things. Stars, planets, trees, mountains, the seas and all that live in them.

Back then, there were no Humans. This was a time of magick because the "mind" wasn't kept in a Human brain that would tell it "that cannot be so."

There were lights in this age old Universe, souls of angels played in the freedom of time and space - the memory of this is stored in the records of time in our psyche, perhaps the model of what is now knowns as, "heaven."

Soon, some of these souls came down to the Earth. They had become curious about this realm of material elements. Animal-like beings and a creative energy of the senses. These souls wanted to know what it felt like to have a body and to experience the senses.

They entered into the primitive forms on Earth and could see through their eyes and know what it was like to smell a rose, or a loved one.  To run in the ocean waves or to sit and watch the stars above - their home. They readied themselves to leave Earth and return to those stars and to the Spirit, but the hold of the material senses overcame them and they became trapped in the bodies they "borrowed."

Soon, they merged with that animal consciousness and being of a higher soul energy, impacted the animal's own DNA - changing, merging, evolving. These new beings were perhaps the creatures of myths. Mermaids, centaurs, satyrs - the half animal and half human forms.  These souls from the first "wave," forgot that they were of the Spirit and became of the flesh. Lost on a material Earth.

A wave of missionary souls - a rescue mission of sorts - came down to rescue the lost first wave and to try and pull them back to Spirit, but they too, became lost in the allure and soon forgot - trapped as well.

Eons of time passed by and a second rescue mission came down to remind the lost souls of their beginnings -  this time though, it was a mission that included only strong and powerful souls, hoping that they would remember why they left. Yet, they too, felt the pull to stay and these stronger souls became the rulers - the Pharaohs and Kings and Leaders in their lands. People like King Arthur were in this wave of lost rescuers.

More time went by and it was decided that one more mission would attempt to return the souls of the first two missions. Of all the waves, these souls were the most precious and most courageous - these were the peaceful warriors and they knew that they were not coming back. They knew and accepted that they would stay on Earth, in a mortal body for time unknown, suffering loss of loved ones and knowing they would watch many die - but they would remain until all the souls that first came, were free.

This was a mission of volunteers - the peaceful warriors came to remind all the others of who they are.  These were very normal souls; students, doctors, parents, policemen, lawyers, criminals, sinners and saints. While most of these warriors have forgotten their mission - a small ember of light remains in their hearts.

For many of the peaceful warriors, that ember is now warming up and they are remembering. They are destined to wake up the others, more servants of the human race and pass that light on. These souls are not better souls - but they have within them a light of love, which enables them to accept all souls as equals - all can be lost and then found. And slowly, they are waking up all the souls of the waves before them - bringing them back to their spiritual family.

The Earth is a school for the humans that have evolved upon it. The peaceful warriors are here to make a difference, to awaken - first in their own souls, then in the souls of as many as can see their light, and then to remind others that they are here on a service mission.

Warriors will have that lifelong feeling of not being a part of this world. They want to return somewhere but aren't sure where. They don't fit in and that is the point - the part that really reminds them of their mission. They are not supposed to fit in - they are here to teach, to lead, and to remind others, by example.

I feel a powerful pull that grows daily - that this year is going to illuminate many more warriors and awaken in them the reason why they are here. Lights will shine again, souls will remember and in turn, they will wake more souls.

If you feel that odd sense of being - that feeling that you are here for a reason that you could never put a finger on - then use what skills and talents you have to let your light shine - and help illuminate a world full of souls, just waiting to glow and brighten this Universe.

In Light
~C